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Monday, November 8, 2010

questions


I find that sometimes I have these questions. I may know all, part, or not any of the answer, or it's impossible. But they're fun to have and think about.

WAIT

Fun to have questions? I thought we're supposed to have all the answers.

*wrong answer buzzer noise* That's God's field. Not quite there yet. But learning.

Previously mentioned questions:

what is it about music that takes me to a different place and time?

why is a rainy, cloudy day sometimes better than a sunny one?

why do i want to live in a different century but still enjoy the conveniences of our modern one? is that possible?

why are books always sooo much better than movies?

why do i get a feeling of completeness when i see yellow, red and orange trees?

when can i marry colbie caillat?

how can life be so wonderful and awful?

what do i need to be doing differently to make it more wonderful than awful?

why can't i be a music major?

how is it so hard to write sometimes, even when i really want to?

what would it be like to be a Bob?

will i be late to class?








wait......

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Monday, November 1, 2010

NaNoWriMo

It's November! Halloween has come and passed. I hope each of you had a great one, I know that I sure did.(The one in the middle, with President Thomas S. Monson's face on it? Yep I helped carve that)

November. That means two months left in the year. Two months.

NaNoWriMo. Another word for November. Don't know what that means? Look like a bunch of letters to you? Stands for National Novel Writing Month. And guess who's taking part in it. Yep, that would be myself.

30 days. 50,000 words. One novel. That is the challenge. It's kind of frightening and invigorating at the same time. I'm pretty sure I can make it happen. It'll require some later nights and less free time, but hey that's all good with me. Just saying that I wrote a novel in 30 days would be a pretty cool accomplishment.

So I'll keep you updated, okay? Okay.

Broken

Julie picks her head up off my chest.

“What are we doing Sammy?”

Sunlight streams through the window. It’s noon.



“Hey Sammy, order up!” Raul yelled at me passing by his counter full of orders needed to be taken out. I was running behind. Was it my fault that I was just having an off day? I seemed to be having more and more of those lately. My life was a juggling act of fire torches and I seemed destined to go down in a blazing inferno. I picked up the trays of food and walked out into the dining room.

Full house that night.

As I sat in the back for a breather and tried to get the baby throw-up off my shirt, I contemplated just walking out. It would be so easy. Just taking the apron off and walking out those doors.

I walked out the doors. Up to another table.

“How are you tonight?”

A woman looked up, alone at the table.

“Just peachy. How ‘bout you bucko?”

“I’m doing just wonderful. I’m Sammy and I’ll be serving you this evening. Can I start you off with something to drink?”

“Well, let me see Sam-I-am. How ‘bout a nice glass of ‘get the heck outta my face while I try and decide what to order’? You serve that don’t you?”

“Are we expecting anyone else to join you tonight?”

“Don’t see anyone else in the booth. I guess a girl can’t just go get a nice dinner by herself, has to have someone to eat dinner with.”

“Excuse me a moment.”

“Be my guest.”

I walked away, thoroughly attracted.

She ordered chicken, dry, nothing on it and water to drink.

She lay down on the booth and took a nap.

She cursed me in French.

Her name was Julie. I asked her out.



Julie pours herself some of her cereal that tastes like cardboard. She sloshes milk everywhere and sweeps it back into her bowl. “I don’t want this to be cliché.”

“How can this not be cliché, Julie? We’re breaking up. That’s cliché in itself.”

“Well no, actually, if we stayed together, that would be cliché. We’re against the grain on this one.”

“No, because statistics are showing that—“

“No more statistics.”

“Why?”

“Because I hate when you start getting all those numbers out and I feel the drool start down the side—“

“I meant why are we breaking up?”

“Oh that’s an easy one. We just don’t work Sammy. We’re broken. We were broken when we started.”



One of Julie’s favorite places to visit was antique stores. I think it was because she hated anything new. Julie was an old world spirit. Antique stores may have many different types of objects from different time periods, but they had the same air about them.

We went to this one store. Browsed around for a bit. Julie came up to me, holding something behind her back.

Tears were in her eyes.

“What’s wrong?”

She held out a picture in a dusty old frame. A woman stared out at me from the black-and-white photo.

“Isn’t she beautiful?”

“Sure, I guess. Who is she?”

“My mother.”

“Really?”

“Yep, she’s yours too.”

“What? No she’s not.”

“She’s everyone’s mother. Everyone who didn’t have one.”

“I had one.”

“Fine, she’ll just be mine then.”



I’m sitting on the bed, watching Julie dress. She always starts from the top and works her way to the bottom. It’s some kind of good luck thing she picked up from one of her crazy religions. She walks over to me.

Kisses me on the forehead.

Turns and walks towards the door, opens it.

Turns back around to look at me.

“I don’t like fixing things Sammy.”

“You’ll get fixed though.”

“You think?”

“Yep. Some blonde bimbo will come right along after me and swoop you up.”

“I just want you to stay.”

“You want to stay like this?”

“If it means that you stay, then yes.”

The door shuts.

©Joseph Whitaker 2010

Saturday, October 23, 2010

what happened today

Sleeping in till noon

Belgian waffles and hash browns
Mario Party 6

Life talks

Rainy, melancholy weatherFootball games

Dancing to my hearts content

Good friendsMovie time

A feeling of fall

Anticipation...

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Thursday, October 21, 2010

It's a Matter of Trust

I'm at my second home right now.

Campus.

I literally live here.

But I was just asking a friend what I should write about on my blog today because I was drawing a complete blank. It happens often.

She said, and I quote:
Write something about trusting in the Lord and about being anxious and waiting but needing to trust that everything will work out if you are doing all you can to keep His commandments and be the best u can be.
I reminded her that I write about that subject often, and that I wanted to write about something else. She told me that I didn't always write about specifically that. And she's right.

As usual.

In fact, why can't I write about it every time? It's an important enough topic, one that we should be remembering on a daily basis. Trusting in the Lord.How hard is that really? Everyone makes it seem easy enough. But do we really truly trust Him? Deeply and unconditionally? When you think about it, wanting to trust Him is the easy part and kinda sorta trusting Him is not much harder. It's completely and totally trusting that's the hard part, at least that's been my experience. So how do we go about that? Elder Gene R. Cook told us-

...may I make these few suggestions that will help you stay close to and trust in the Lord:

1. Pray to Him, continually seeking revelation throughout the day. (See 2 Ne. 9:52.)

2. Read His scriptures daily, even if only for a few minutes. They will give you direction in this world and teach you of the world to come.

3. Exercise faith and keep the things of the Spirit as the first priority in your life, then all else will be appropriately added.

4. Seek to do His will, not your own, humbling yourself and repenting or changing your life as needed.

5. Love others; serve them. Feed the Lord’s flock.

6. Keep the commandments with exactness.

Remember, the Lord will ultimately prosper those who keep His commandments. He said: “And if it so be that the children of men keep the commandments of God he doth nourish them, and strengthen them, and provide means whereby they can accomplish the thing which he has commanded them.” (1 Ne. 17:3
)
Gene R. Cook, “Trust in the Lord,” Tambuli, Aug 1986, 32

Can we try that?

I will.

The Lord's always on our side. We just gotta make sure we stay on His.

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Wednesday, October 20, 2010

What I wouldn't give to be a flat person

I have a visitor this week.

A letter came from Esther, my little sister, a couple days ago. I was a tad surprised. My birthday had been a couple weeks prior so it couldn't be that... What in the world?! There's a little man in the envelope! A letter emerged with the man.

Flat Stanley.

For those of you who don't recognize this beloved childrens character (and those of you who fit that description apparently had no childhood), Flat Stanley is a little boy who gets tragically crushed by a bulletin board, and becomes a flat-two dimensional figure. A blessing in disguise it seems, for now Stanley can travel around the world in an envelope having adventures.

He had been sent to me so that he could learn about the place where I live, work, play, etc.

Needless to say, I got kind of giddy. That may sound a tad bit dorky, but oh well. I felt extremely touched that my sister would trust me with him so that she and her class could learn more about the world. I immediately started planning places to take Stanley, planning to take pictures of all of it.

Look for one of the next posts to be devoted to this. It's gonna be fun!

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Monday, October 18, 2010

Mi madre, for her birthday


Mommy dearest,
It's your birthday today and since you allowed me to grace the pages of your blog on my birthday, I thought it fitting that I do the same for you. What can be expressed in words to a mother, that cannot be expressed simply? To my Heavenly Father I say thank you for putting this wonderful woman on the earth so that she could be my mother.

Mom,
An ear when I need one
A guide for your children
An amazing cook
A rock in spiritual matters
A beautiful person, inside and out
And so much more!
Love you Mom!